Why I took a blogging break…

Oh hey there…

Yup, that’s right its me! I’m back! I’m totally talking to myself right now, but if you are out there and listening… HEELLLOOOO.

To say I’m apprehensive about getting back to blogging after pregnancy and giving birth is an understatement. Can I get back into the swing of things? Will people remember me? Will I be able to blog and be a mum at the same time? I thought about lots of things and ultimately blogging and the blogging community makes me really happy and that’s a good enough reason to get back to it on it’s own.

Pregnancy wiped me out, all of my brain space was taken up by the fact my body was changing and I was really tired. I was so excited to be growing this little person that was half me and half James, I had no room left in my brain to think about anything else. I completely took time to look after my body and be mindful of what I was going through and to understand that it was the most important thing I had done to date and then I gave birth …

If I thought pregnancy was a task, well let me tell you, people who say you forget the pain, they are liars!. It is painful and stressful but wonderful and exhilarating. I had a four day labour basically, I had a failed induction and had to have my waters broken by an extremely patient midwife. I was tired and fed up and totally stressed out, I thought I was never going to be able to bring my little girl into the world safely and all sorts of horror stories were running through my brain.

I was so lucky to have James by my side, he was so calm and collected and even when we found out after 12 hours, that’s right 12 hours people, that Erin had the cord round her neck and they were going to have to basically re create the set of a saw film in my delivery room and get her out using forceps, James was totally calm and had faith that I was strong enough to do it. I got her here, safely and as calm as I could. After four days I walked out of the hospital feeling like a superhero, wondering if people around me knew how awesome I had just been and if they could ever fully understand how much I loved this little, pink bundle of joy being carried in a car seat by the proudest dad in the world.

So after nearly 10 weeks, I am starting to feel like myself again. Starting to remember the things that make me really happy, apart from Erin, Erin is my life but not my whole life. I am not just a mum and I think, personally for my own mental health, I need to remember this on a daily basis.

So that is why I took a blogging break… I hope you missed me…

2 thoughts on “Why I took a blogging break…

  1. First Blog post I’ve properly read of yours! Congratulations first of all!!
    I have been struggling a lot with my own mental health, I feel like I am so stuck and I know what I want in life but everything just seems so impossible to actually achieve! Reading this has made me feel better in a way so thank you!
    Best of luck with your journey as a new mummy!!xx

    • Ah thank you! Sometimes you just don’t have enough brain space I made a list of things that make me happy and make sure I do at least one a day! It really helps. Thanks again for reading xx

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